Mail from the suspended Past

I got a mail from someone who mean something real to me. Earlier after so much time I started to think I was stupid to feel such a stupid thing & it was all just a mood swing but when I read that name I felt a wave of warmth passing through head to heart with humid eyes. It was like she pushed some button & restored everything which was lost & to recover everything I tried to bury & Now every feeling Good or bad or wounds feel fresh.
It wasn’t as strong as it was earlier but the thing is still I felt that when I was sure it was nothing.
I really didn’t wanted to hear from her, I didn’t thought of her most of time, I don’t ve feelings for her & Im lying. But there’s something sure that I didn’t missed her coz my memories with her aren’t so gud. So I remembered her but didn’t missed her.
I don’t know what she need now & why she contacted me. I asked same from her & reply was as disappointing & cruel as it used to be “Can’t a human remember another human?” So I guess for the sake of humanity she did that. How kind.
Just to be on the safe side Im not asking anything, She’s questioning & Im Answering. Nothing else. Expecting nothing is better then being disappointed.

Idk why m feeling nothing while typing this like an empty vessel inside a box.

Note: IM ON SUSPENSION, SUSPENDED for uncertain period of time.

I am for you

Vertical Horizon - Everything You Want

I am everything you want !
I am everything you need !
I am everything inside of you That you wish you could be !
I say all the right things At exactly the right time
But I mean nothing to you and I don’t know…why.
And I don’t know why… I… I…Don’t know.. why.

Finally

Finally Its Done…….. I didn’t need to kill my Batch coordinator for it as after showing it 10 times, 11th time she made correction to it herself as a nice lady (She saved her own life) But it was funny coz Im the only one whose Project field report is made by the Coordinator herself lol. People are jealous of me. Idk why she do so much favor to me, even mark my present when I bunk LOL (its another thing that later she pretend to be angry on me in private and all I do is give her a smile & she start smiling too hahaha From Anger –>Smile in one smile)

Now Im just waiting for Head of department’s sign on that certificate & then Viva.

& YEA A HORRIFYING NEWS. I Got my Exam Schedule. I got my Exams from 11th to 19th of May (4 Exams)

From 7am to 10 am : /

So after 19th My studies for graduation will be OVER!!!!

I know I need to study but Idk Y im not studying. Im trying hard to do but Its so hard to sit at one place for more then 5 mins.

I need tips on How to study/How to Learn

French Pico Doodle

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What would you do When someday I meet u in real?

Some wanted to hit me with chair on my face

Some wanted rip my head and play football with it

some wanted to simply kick my balls

some wanted to beat me till my teeth bleed

some said im goofy (Im not)

some said I care how people feel when I talk to them

some said I know they Love me even when sometimes they cant stant me

Some even proposed my hate club

some wanted to punch to put a piece of mind in me and then a kiss to take away the pain

But only that blonde replied

“I would welcome you with nice worm hug.”

-Just a random and first thought For the nicest blonde to whom Im most rude and mean guy.

Idk how I forgotten about her existance that I never even had any thought about her and I doubt that I won’t have anymore thoughts of her. Well the best thing is she don’t remember me either, That makes both of us happy : )

Recall

I really didnt wanted to tap on that “Sign out” button, It was the hardest thing to do.
I never expected to see anybody there but i was shocked when i recieved that IM from Paul. No No not shocked, Surprised (Happiness)
Idk y I felt happy
I wanted to talk to her for looooong like before but at same time i knew i should not.

Well it wont happen again, M not gonna go there again.

Sometimes a Hug is all what we need

A random picture i found while searching for something else.

Visits

I dont understand how could a person visit my blog 289 times in a day? O.o (It can only happen if you miss me enough much to refresh again & again)(Yea its about u but not only about you. Im talking about other people too & they know who they are)

Every person who commented here visited atleast 50 times after commenting.

May I know what u were expecting?

Stats of All-time (Blog was published Less then a month ago)

From continuosly 5 days i sit with books a notebook and pen as im trying hard to study but the problem is i find it hard to even open the book, its soooooo dreadful to read first line of it >:(
im trying to study early this time because i want to avoide Horryfieng Terrible Stressful all night lastnight studies atleast this time. if uve ever did lastnight cramping thenYou know that Its a real nightmare…

SO AS YOU ALL CAN SEE THAT WITH THIS STRONG CONSCIENCE AND BOOKS AND NOTES IN FRONT OF ME AT 12:30 AM LATE NIGHT INSTEAD OF READING THEM IM FUCKING BUSY WITH POSTING A BLOG >:OOOO

(Cause of some error it didnt shown remain part of post earlier)

Additional info: I slept after posting this without any study.

Exam prepration vacation

Exam prepration vacation, a vacation which is hard to enjoy.
You cant go out because u know exams r at the door, u cant study coz u wanna go out or do sometging else like chatting and u dont wanna do sth else coz u know its a waste of time and studying is better option but still u dont study.

U guyz know i got a fact that would be useful to u guyz too.
Do u know u wont be able to enjoy anything if u dont do/accomplish ur prime objective/work sincerly.
My dad always say “A sincier man is the most happy person on earth”

its like if ur prime objective is to study and u dont study properly then u will always feel unsatisfied nomatter how much fun ur doing and if you fail in examx then even when nobody scold or say anything to u then also u will feel unhappy and feel everything unenjoyable and start hating those funny things.
Example: if u dont work hard (job or study or anything) then after giving exams or after results then ur favorite food will also taste faded and aweful.

There’s always something in the way

Few months ago i installed a Pc monitoring software which monitors all of my pc activities from key log to screenshot taking in every few mins. It records everything i type from passwords to im chats & all.

Last night i was clearing my pc’s crap, there i found few snapshots that were taken by my pc monitoring software & They really made me feel happy & brought smile on my face : )

Here r few that i sorted out

I think My computer is missing people. Stupid Machine.

Here’s a song she suggested me, This time I wanna dedicate it to her.

And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky

Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to Leave it all behind?

Did I?